What if I Wore an Apron?

I didn’t want to step up onto one of my soapboxes so soon, but I ran across this article earlier today. It talks about a study that finally disaffirmed a theory that a woman’s personality determined her susceptibility to breast cancer. Pish.

Women and the medical field have always had a bit of a rocky relationship. Up until the late twentieth century, almost all medical studies were conducted on men, and that includes studies geared toward women. Supposedly, our hormones messed up their tests. Of course, one would think that the hormones would need to be taken into consideration when creating medications and treatments specifically for women, but then again, what do I know? I don’t have a medical degree. All I have is an interest in medicine, and I’ll be the first to admit that even that’s a bit of a touch and go fancy.

But thinking “anti-emotionality” in women made them more prone to cancer? Thinking that any personality traits makes anyone more prone to cancer, regardless of gender, seems rather ridiculous to me, but I have yet to come across an article that makes such a claim between men and prostrate cancer. I don’t think it’s a coincidence that such a theory between disease and personality was associated with women. Why not personality and some non gender-specific cancer? Why specifically breast cancer?

My mother brought up an interesting question when I sent her this article about a possible disease known as Morgellons. I’ve been reading information about this affliction off and on for about two years (maybe more), and the medical field has yet to determine whether or not this is an acutal disease. The article mentions that most doctors diagnose possible Morgellons sufferers with “delusional parasitosis” (ie they only think they’re sick), and when my mother and I were discussing the article she said, “What do you want to bet that most of the people with this are women?”

That made me pause. Granted, I haven’t been able to find out if she’s right or not, but I wouldn’t be surprised if the majority of sufferers are women and children. For some reason, many within the medical profession (and note I did not say “all”) don’t seem to take women patients seriously. This is changing, I think, especially as more and more women enter the medical field, but still I feel there is some basic bias against taking women seriously. It’s like that “Golden Girls” episode (and yes, I know the irony of making a serious point using a sitcom, but it’s a good example) when Dorothy contracts chronic fatigue syndrome, and one of the first doctors she goes to tells her it’s essentially all in her head. I know this episode struck a cord with a lot of women because it’s a real issue.

 For a real life example, take what happened to me about two years ago. I was having dizzy spells, most often when driving, and they would sometimes get so bad that I’d have to pull over, half afraid I’d pass out behind the wheel. I initially attributed it to sinuses and allergies (I was living in California and, at that time, smoke from a wildfire wreaked havoc on everyone’s sinuses), but after awhile I had to admit defeat and seek an expert opinion. 

I didn’t have a doctor, so I scheduled an appointment with one close to the office where I worked and on the appointed day I went in, filled out all the paperwork, and was put into one of the pale blue rooms with the medical appartatus decor where a nurse took my vitals and then left. Twenty minutes later, the female doctor breezed in, asked about my symptoms, and declared my problem to be the result of “panic attacks”.

“But,” I said, “I’ve had a panic attack before, and these don’t feel like that.”

She assured me that panic attacks don’t all feel exactly the same and wrote me a prescription. “Are you allergic to anything?” she asked. At this point, she’d yet to touch me.

“But the dizziness goes away after only a couple of minutes,” I told her. “Don’t medications take at least fifteen minute to be absorbed into the system?” (Okay, so I wasn’t quite that verbose in our conversation, but that’s the gist of what I said.)

She finally began to look me over, listening to my heart and lungs, peering in all the cranial nooks and cranies with the little light on a stick that doctors love so much. “Just take it when you think you’re about to have a panic attack,” she said.

“But I don’t think I’m having panic attacks.”

She tsked, tsked me and wrote a prescription anyway. Needless to say, I never got it filled. I decided to get a second opinion but, because of the way my HMO was set up, I had to wait a month before I could get my insurance transferred over. The new doctor, ironically a man, became fairly indignant when I explained my prior experience. He looked me over, checked the results of some bloodwork, had me move my head this way and that, and then told me that he knew exactly what I had. “And,” he said, “it’s not panic attacks.”

“You’re going to laugh when I tell you this,” he continued, “but I’m going to cure you right here and now, and it won’t even take five minutes.”

“Wait–” I said, images of large needles tripping through my mind. “What is it?”

Benign Positional Vertigo.”

“Benign what-what?”

“It’s a problem in the inner ear that causes dizziness when you move your head a lot, which is why you get it so often when you’re driving. And I’m going to fix it right now.”

And he did. I haven’t had a problem since. (For those of you interested, the link above has a nice little animation of how BPV can be cured. Essentially, all the doctor had me do was rotate my head in a certain way and voila! No more dizziness.)

Sometimes I wonder if the first doctor would have dismissed my symptoms so easily if I’d been a man. Would she have been just as quick to declare it panic attacks and offer a quick fix with a prescription slip if I’d had a lot less estrogen and a lot more testosterone? Thankfully all I did have was a minor ear problem, but what would have happened if my symptoms had been indicative of something much worse, something more aggressive and more pervasive, especially since I’d been forced to wait an additional month for proper treatment?

Then again, maybe if I’d smiled more and worn an apron, I wouldn’t have had a problem in the first place.

Why I Think I’m Crazy…

Ten Rants on Why I Think I May Be Off My Rocker

1. I work two jobs. Why? Because I like to work. For a little over a month, I had three jobs, and thus discovered my limit. How do I still find time to write? Beats the heck out of me, but the stuff keeps flowin’. I think having paper constantly nearby helps, along with the ability to remember where, exactly, I left off and how to pick right back up from there. This is a learned trait, one self-taught by pure necessity, I’m sure. And, yes, I do have a social life.

2. Mystery songs appear on my iPod. I’m the only one to put songs on it. No one else has access to the thing, and I take it with me everywhere, so it’s not like a family member or friend could be messing with my head. Apparently, I don’t need that. I mess with my own mind. Every so often a song will come on, and I’ll look at the little black box like it’s betrayed me and I’ll wonder, “Where the heck did THAT come from?”

3. I have a fascination with names. I collect them. I look up their meanings and their origins. I tend to create nicknames for the people around me, and I consider it a personal challenge in life to come up with e-mail addresses that do not require any fancy spelling or numbers no matter how many tries it takes.

4. I hide chocolate from myself. Yes, I go to the store, pick out my favorite dark chocolate du jour, purchase said chocolate, bring it home, unpack it, and then hide it. Like I won’t know where it is. Like I don’t sense it sitting there, calling to me, whenever I’m within twenty feet of it. Yes, my nefarious plot to limit my chocolate intake is pure genius.

5. None of the clocks in my house are set to the same time. Well, one of them is, actually, but I don’t remember which one. I did this on purpose. Why? I think the original intent followed the logic of “If I don’t know the real time, I’ll have to play it safe and always leave early, and therefore will always be on time.” Does this work? Please see above. It works about that well.

6. I used to have an incredible sense of direction. I could find my way somewhere and never have to look it up on a map again. Somehow in the last year or so that has changed. I get lost at the drop of the hat, and I could swear that the roads change like the walls of the labyrinth in, well, The Labyrinth.

7. I’m neurotic about my fingernails. They don’t have to be the same length, but each one has to be smooth and just the right shape. It drives me crazy if one breaks, and I’m not able to repair it right away. Because of that, not only do I have nail clippers in my purse, in my car, all over my house, and in my desk at work, but my mother and sisters carry them as well because I’ll drive them crazy if I don’t get my nail fixed now.

8. I once read an article where a writer lost all of his unpublished work in Hurricane Katrina, and since then I’ve been paranoid of losing my own work in a fire, tornado, or some other natural disaster. As a result, I carry a backup thumb drive in my purse that I update every few weeks (aside from my regular backup drive), and about once a year I burn a CD of everything in my writing folder and send it to a friend who lives in another city. (Thank you, Jessica! You’re marvelous!) Despite all this, I’m still paranoid.

9. I have been known to forget everything when reading a really, really good book. This includes eating and sleeping.

10. I’m a writer. Enough said.

Welcome

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Besides, I’m still learning what it takes to create and maintain a website. I ask for patience as you check in now and again to see if I’ve picked up any new tips or tricks. Or, at the very least, have some news to tell.  Until then, thanks for stopping by!